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Sunday, June 22, 2008

Busy Days..

Yeah, yesterday i had my negotiation assessment.. it was fun and actually not as scary as i thought.. this is the 1st time having assessment n prepared myself without asking my cousins or someone else.. just discussed with my partner.. we had to look for our opponent ourselves. The other groups, they discussed with their opponents and even draft a script and followed it on that day negotiation..but my group didnt do so.. coz we wanted the negotiation to look more aggresive so that it looks real.. haha.. we only discussed on certain points that we might raise up..the others are just depends on the situation..haha.. it was great..we even get compliment from our lecturer..

The previous day i was rushing for my Bundle of Authorities (BOA) for my mooting.. haha..many cases need to read..but this cant be escaped.. this is one of the pathway to finish my BOA.. this few days i slept only at early 4am ..then woke up at 8am to attend classes.. but after that, it was a satisfaction on me and my partner and we managed to make it..hahahah a sudden burden has released..so i decided to hv a walk in MidValley and watch a movie to relax myself..we watched GET SMART.. it was damn funny..i can tell.. i enjoy it very much..but because of tiredness, i back home early after dinner..

Now, the next assessment is my mooting.. this is really important for me.. i really hv to do my best on it.. and also, mooting can show my weaknesses of nervous and panic..i hv to overcome myself before i can stand in front of my opponent and speak confidently.. believe myself..dont be distracted by my opponent.. Dont ever think of losing before we have do our best.

Let's work on it.. dont ever thk of going back, we must go forward.. GOOD LUCK to everyone on ur assessment!!!

Monday, June 9, 2008

TRUST

How would you feel if somebody doesn't trust you? Have you ever felt it before? On 7th June 2008, it was a special day for me. However, I had a quarrel with HIM for the whole day, even to the next day. TRUST is the conductor that leads us to the quarrel. Having been together for three years and only now we started our quarrel on TRUST. I was so shocked as I never thought that we would argue on that issue.

Starting from the last previous days, HE always suspicious on my words, HE didn't seem to trust whatever I told HIM. I was trying to defend for myself but HE said I was finding reasons for myself. It was obviously HIS fault, how come the blame came to me again? Why am I supposed to be blamed? Do you ever know the feeling of being blamed by someone else when that was not your fault?

After the quarrel, we had a cold war. Although HE phoned me and apologised, after few minutes conversation, HE started to argue with me and yelled at me again. And again, we argued for half an hour. From HIS conversation, I can feel the impatience and impassion on HIM. My heart suddenly felt so pain till my tears started to drop. Wouldn't want him to know that I was crying, I excused myself from HIM, saying that I need to cool and calm down.

After the cooling period, I believed that HE might have calm himself down and HE apologise to me, hoping that I will forgive HIM. HIS words once again touched me and I believed HIM, believed in HIS sincerity. However, I told HIM:"If this happens again, please bear with me that I will keep silent and walk away." Quarrel on the issue of TRUST really tortured me, I had a sleepless night, looking at the ceiling, let my tears to drop as much as it likes. I really hope that our situation will get better soon.

TRUST is important among a couple. I trust you and of course, i hope you will trust me too. Please remember the promise that you have promised me. I won't feel good on disappointment. Wishing that we can move to the 4th year together. Don't ever let any factors or quarrel affect our relationship.

Friday, June 6, 2008

Happy 3rd Year Anniversary..

I am very happy now because tomorrow (7th june) is one of the memorable days for me. I have been with HIM for 3 years.. it was an incredible figure for me.. 3 years..I couldn't believe it.. Well, I admit..I wish to be loved by someone..I wished to be told "I Love You" and "I Miss You" everyday before I went to bed.. I made it.. I am glad that both of us can make it..

This is an uneasy and tough journey for me and HIM. We couldn't meet each others everyday, not even every month.. We only contact each others through msn, sms and phone call.. Of course, we have been through lots of obstacles to get together until now..and I am looking forward for more years to come. Everytime when I saw some couples holding hands, shopping together, watching movie, having dinner together, I started to envy..started to think:"How good is that if HE is here with me." Then i will start complaining to HIM..saying that so sweet the couples are. However, everytime HIS consolation always make me feel warm and increase my confidence in our relationship.

Even if we are from the same hometown, living in the same city, we still couldn't meet everyday as we were studying in the different school. After that, HE went to another city for HIS A-level. Then i come here (KL) for my further studies also. Our distance has been lengthen and only could meet each other twice a year. When I left Sandakan, HE told that we won't know what would happen between us in the future, and if I find someone better than HIM, HE will respect my decision and so do I, will respect HIS decision if HE finds HIS true love. This touched me very much..and because of this, I appreciate our relationship more as I know, I wouldn't want to lose HIM..

One day, someone asked me:" Won't u feel suffered that u couldn't see HIM everyday and normally long-distant relationship won't last long, why don't u look for some other guys here?" Of course I will suffer..but "long-distant relationship" will not be a threat for both of us.. I believe no matter how far both of us are, if we are the one for each others, it doesnt seem a problem, just as we have been "arranged" to be together. Ya, someone might think that this phrase is so naive and childish but i do believe it..if we are not the one for each others, no matter how, we will be separated without reasons.

Steps by steps, having gone through ups and downs, we make it to the 3rd year. Oh ya, I have received a cute lil piggy bolster from HIM..HE knew that almost every night I slept after 12 midnight, HE gave me that lil piggy, saying that lil piggy has to sleep early and it will only sleep when the owner sleeps..meaning that HE wants me to sleep early..so sweet..once again, his deed and words touched my heart. Last time, I used to complain that HE is not romantic but actually HE is very caring and will do something for my surprise. I appreciated whatever HE has done to me..I really do!! Before I ended this, I wish every couples please do appreciate each others as it is not easy to meet the one u really love and someone really loves u..no matter how long both of u can be together eventhough only a short period..and of course, for those who are still single, hope u can find ur true love as soon as possible.. Wishing everybody HAPPY ALWAYS!!!

p.s. Hubby, glad that we made it.. Happy 3rd Year Anniversary.. Thx for everything u have done and said. I will appreciate it..I love you..muakz!! Take care~~