Christmas ^^

Merry Christmas, everyone! I celebrated my christmas eve with my friends which was full of joy and fun!

To make it brief, we had dinner in One-Utama Shopping Mall, a steamboat restaurant called Plus One Shabu Shabu if I am not mistaken, then we went to D' Rich in SS2 to countdown. Well, the atmosphere was nice and crowded but once the clock struck 12am - everyone was so 'peaceful'! What?! No one was counting down to Christmas! They continued with their food and chat! @@

On the Christmas day, I went to Midvalley to  meet up with my lovely brother. We had korean cuisine and coincidentally we met Ivy and Richard. We then walked around and went for a drink in Papparich. After 6pm, my friends were there to join me for dinner. After dinner, I sent off my brother in KTM then I went for movie - 'Meet the Parents - Little Fockers'. The movie was hillarious and funny! haha..

The next day - yeah, it was boxing day! My friends and I went to One-U again for shopping. I didn't really get myself present =( Nevermind, I will save to get what I want next year! I have written down my wishlist. =P We had sushi for dinner and before that, we went for movie - 'Gulliver's Travel'! I prefer this movie to Little Fockers. Little Fockers were just make-no-sense movie, sorry to say that! hahah..

I thought I will be alone during this year Christmas but ending up God gifted me a memorable and blessed Christmas with my friends and loved ones! Thank you, God! I appreciate everything YOU have given me and I thanked for the Christmas present I got from my friends.^^

A brand new year is coming soon! Hopefully I am gifted with what I wish for! =P *praying hard + fingers crossing* Once again, Merry Christmas to you all! =)

Blessings from Sharie! *heart*

Sleeping makes me a second life.

Recently, I like to sleep! Whenever I am sad or feel ignored or feel like crying, I will sleep! I would say - sleeping makes me a second life! It is because I can start dreaming - dream of something fantasy, something that makes me pleasant and peace, something that I may not get in real life. I find another me in the dream.

No matter how not tired I am, I will force myself to sleep. It is sort of like an addictive drug. When you feel helpless and effortless, sleep will help to cure your 'addiction'. Once you wake up from your dream, you will feel better. I would say - this could be a waste of time or kind of an action of escaping from reality or unwilling to face the truth. But by doing so, it just makes me feel better and fresher and most importantly, it awakes me by letting me to see the difference between the reality and dream which makes me stronger and to have more courage to accept the fact and face the world.

In 24 hours, the part that I love the most is night time. During night time, especially sleeping time, I can see miraculous things happen on me. Those moments, I feel pampered, feel being attentive, feel being cared and loved. I clearly know it doesn't exist and yet I choose to live in the dream - a dream just only has both of us. Although it is just a dream, but I appreciate the moments I had in the dream even though only for few hours. It created great unforgettable memories for me which I will carry them with me forever.

However, I believe one day my dream will come true albeit I know fairy tale doesn't exist in real life. Therefore, I will create my own fairy tale, my own magical world because I am not losing hope on love, because I am not giving up on love. I still believe in it and have faith in it although I was hurt by it once, but that doesn't defeat me!

*Sleeping makes me a second life.*

Quiz - How long will your relationship last?

LoL.. I took a quiz in Facebook which I seldom did that or I should say - I seldom believe in such things. But I don't know what get on me and lead me to take the quiz - How long will your relationship last? You guys must be puzzled on how come I will take such quiz as I am available now. *teehee* Well, just for future reference, I guess. =P

My result was a nice and satisfying one - How long will my relationship last? and Sharie got FOREVER!!! Wow.. I am kinda excited and happy and of course, surprised! *haha* The result goes like this - "You and your partner were made for each other. Your lives together will be nothing but happiness and love. It won't matter how much money, or things you will have in your life, but the time and memories that are made with one another!! " - sounds great, isn't it? Who doesn't wish for that? At least I am!

This turns me on for moments. It is like destiny - I am somehow destined to love H. Yes, I admit - I love H - but whether can be together, it turns out to be another issue. I love H dearly more than anyone does but I know my position.

Not going to be ashame of, I actually always think that H is the one for me! I have never thought of getting with another guy and the best part is I thought of marrying him. *blush* I have told H before, I told him that we seem like we were made for each other and I remember he told me the exact words above - Our lives will be nothing but full of happiness and love. Well, I don't care where he is from, how rich he is, how many good and bad habits he has, I don't care!!! I just love him for who he is!

However, what has happened is happened. H disappointed me and this is the fact but the silly part is I choose to continue to love him and stay by his side. Perhaps like I said, I am destined to love him. *gosh* What can I do now? Nothing but to respect his decision and to live my own life. I am out of the game! But it doesn't  mean I give up! I know myself well. I have made my decision too! I have been telling the whole world that I am strong and tough enough to handle this but sometimes, I just got defeated! Nevermind, I will treat this as part of my growing! I believe there is courage and strength somewhere in my body which I can defeat the pain and accept the fact.

Still the old phrase - I am not going to hide my feelings to anyone I fond of. I will just be myself and live my blessed and contended life! *smiley Sharie*

Off to brunch now! Have a nice day, pals! =)

你是错的人吗？

你是那个错的人，还是我？

        明知道爱情并不牢靠

　　但是我还是拼命往里跳

　　明知道再走可能是监牢

　　但是我还是相信只是煎熬

　　朋友都劝我不要不要

　　不要拿自己的幸福开玩笑

　　但是做人已经那么累

　　假惺惺的想要逃

　　在爱里连真心都不能给

　　这才真正的可笑

　　爱得太真 太容易让自己牺牲

　　太容易让自己沉沦

　　太容易不顾一切 满是伤痕

　　我太笨 明知道你是错的人

　　明知道这不是缘分

　　但是我还奋不顾身

 

        可能在爱里面这样算笨

　　可能永远没有所谓永恒

　　但是我不愿放弃这里面一点点可能

　　宁愿笨也不想要悔恨

　　爱得太真 太容易让自己牺牲

　　太容易让自己沉沦

　　太容易不顾一切 满是伤痕

　　我太笨 明知道你是错的人

　　明知道这不是缘分

　　但我还是奋不顾身

        我太笨明知道你是错的人

　　明知道这不是缘分

  　但我相信有点可能

Happy Birthday, Chloe!

Yesterday, Chloe had a birthday celebration in Redbox, The Gardens. Our friends were all invited but there were some who can't attend due to classes or personal stuff.

We sang from 2pm till 6pm! NO! Till 7pm! Haha.. we tore our throats, screaming and shouting with every energy we had, making every high pitches we can! *windows cracked*

After sing k session, we went to Snowflakes, Kota Damansara for desserts as the birthday girl hasn't been there before. I am glad that she likes the place very much. As there are sharp eyes killing us - shooing us away, and so we went to a nearby mamak stall for drinks and chit-chat! Out of sudden, we spotted a leisure sport game centre and the guys are kinda intestered in a round of pool game. While the guys are 'showing off', we girls just sat there and 'watched' their performance while chatting.

CK is claimed to be the pool king because he won 2 out of 3 of the game. As for my knowledge, CK is always the one who is good at pool game as I used to always see them playing pool game in Spinky, PBD. It was a pleasant night and I hope that birthday girl will like it!

I have bought nothing for You but what I can do is to dedicate this blog to You!

 

Happy Birthday, Chloe!

Wishing you a happy blissful birthday with lots of blessings!

Smile : )

Recently I was kinda emo and 

I'm sorry that you all have to bear with me.

I'm touched as well, from the things I have been through,

I know who my friends are.

They have been there supporting me, encouraging me,

pampering me, consoling me etc.

Just to let you all know,

the Sharie that you all know of - is back now!

She is now no more emo, sadness

She is now happy and going to smile everyday!

She will not be defeated by pain and sorrow.

She is who she is! : )

*I am blessed*

*I love you, dear. Whether not you are mine.*

Wish..

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars

 I could really use a wish right now!

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*wishing*

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I am hoping we can make some wishes out of the airplanes.

Nobody..

There is always that one person that will always have your heart

You never see it coming because you are blinded from the start

Know that you are the one for me

It is clear for everyone to see

It started when we were younger

It began when we were no more strangers

Now you have been taken

But still you are in my eyes

Do you remember

You were the one who gave me your first kiss

Do you remember

You were the one who said put your hands like this

I remember our first kiss

because after we kissed I could only think about your lips

I remember our hugs

because the moment I knew you were the one I could spend my life with

I was in love with you when we were younger

I was in love with you when we were friends

I still can feel it

No matter how I try to hide

Now you are no more in my future

My plans do not include you

I have chosen to leave you before you could say a word

because You are a Nobody

Ipoh 2D1N Trip..

Last Saturday, I went to Ipoh for a 2days1night trip with my friends, to pay a visit to YeeLin's hometown and also His hometown.

Ipoh is a place where I am always longing to go. I was regret 2 years ago for not able to visit Ipoh but now, I have fulfilled my promise and to at least leave my footprints in Ipoh. I have no regrets now.

I was well-treated by YeeLin's family. We went for Ipoh Hor-fun and Tauge-Chicken, and dinner was a seafood feast! *yummy* The next morning, her parents brought us to have hakka noodles. Being a hakka-ian for 21 years, I have never tasted hakka noodles before. *shame me*

We went to the Lost World of Tambun, Gua Kek Look Tong, Kellie's Castle, Mine Dredging Ship. The whole journey, we could only hear the sound of snapping photos *snap snap snap* and our laughters! In the evening, we packed our luggage and started our journey back KL.

It was a meaningful journey for me. It is not only a break to relax myself from this stressing world but also to clear my regret which has been with me for years. I have left my footprints and memories in Ipoh, in a place where you belongs, in a place which you call 2nd home. I have no regret now - at least I have been there ONCE!

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了。。。

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会在街上走的时候想到我，想到蹲在地上痛哭；

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会在最快乐时想起我，想让我和你一起分享你的快乐；

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会在半夜突然醒来，想我想到泣不成声；

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会无数次的点击我的空间，看看我留下的痕迹；

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会认真的用心的看我空间里的每篇文章，然后理解我当初是多么的珍惜你；

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会每天开着MSN等我，当你看见好友上线时心中一阵紧张，以为是我；

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会看那无聊的肥皂剧流泪，然后狠狠的想我；

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会觉得其实你是想我的，其实你也很在乎我；

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会一直等我，一直相信我会回到你们身边；

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会痛哭流涕，就像迷失了自己；　

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会紧跟着与我相似的背影，只为确认那是不是我；　

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会走遍我们曾去过的角落，以拾起那曾经属于我们的记忆；　

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会像电视里演的那样，记着我一辈子？　

如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，你会不会像上面我说的一样去做？


我想你不会，因为我不是你心中最重要的一个，也不是你不可缺少的一个。别说我是你最爱的，我不是，如果我是，你不会舍得我走！


如果有一天，我从你的世界消失了，我可能不会再回头，而你要忘了我继续生活。

是不是我真的消失了，你才会发现身边有个我？

是不是我真的消失了，你才会想起来应该珍惜我？

是不是我真的消失了，你才会知道怎么样来珍惜我？

是不是我真的消失了，你才会感觉到当初我是多么的在乎你？

是不是我真的消失了，你才会舍得给我一丝理解？

是不是我真的消失了，你才会明白你真的失去了我？

是不是我真的消失了，你才会想要挽留？

我还有好多事情要去做 -  不想让你知道，不想被你发现，就这样静静地，安静地消失吧!

我傻笑，伪装掉下的泪水。

我装傻，掩盖了我和你的故事。

我装爱，修饰我对你的容忍。

我爱你，难以自拔。。。

Nothing to hide anymore..

It's over, finally! He has walked out from my world, entering into a new world and left me with memory. I have nothing to hide anymore after have been hiding for a month - I am proud to say I am single!

I am not going to explain anything! Nothing much to say, what happened has already happened! Just let it be and start my new life without him. We both have tried everything we can but it didn't turn out right as we expected and so we just have to accept it.

He has a special place in my heart, will always do. He has shown me what love is, has taught me lots of things and has given me lots of happy and sweet moments. I am happy that I was once his special angel in his heart. Not going to demand more, I just wish him the best and all things go well on him. Stay Healthy and Happy - this will be the best gift for me!

However, I am glad to have supports and cares from my loved ones! These are what we called Friends, will be there whenever you need them!

Thank you for all the blesssings and no worries, I will be fine! Who am I, I am Sharie!!! =) I know I am blessed.. >",<...

Sometimes...

Sometimes, we think we can control or change things but there are things that can't be controlled or changed. They are well planned and arranged.

Our road is destined, whether good or bad. We no need to figure it out what the road is. We will be led to our road. What we can do is just to follow the pathway which purpose is for our good.


Sometimes, we think we can hide our feelings but there are feelings that can't be hidden. Why do we need to hide our feelings? Who has rights to stop us from expressing our feelings?

We don't need to pretend to be happy or sad. What we can do is just to express our feelings whenever we feel like doing so, no matter happy, sad or angry. Expressing our feelings shows the real us!


Sometimes, heart can see what is invisible to the eyes. Trust and listen to what our heart is trying to tell us then follow our heart.

The door of our heart should always be open, for those who want to come in and for those who want to walk out. We have to discard those unnecessary burden or stuff that do not belong to our heart or do not mean to be inside but we have to accept those are important and worth putting inside.


Now, follow your planned pathway, express your real feelings, and open your heart! You will see a brighter and better day ahead. *smile* : )

~♥水瓶座♥~

几乎每个水瓶座的心底都有着一段刻骨铭心人间记忆，一个永远无法忘记的背影。

那也许只是极其短暂的两情相悦，只是一种单恋，或只是一种只存在于虚幻空间，似乎只是自己一个人的事。

一切看起来是那么平静，那么和谐。

没有惊天动地，没有海誓山盟，没有花前月下，没有浪漫，没有誓言，没有温度。水瓶座的理智和冷漠，注定了任何感情永无燃点。

水瓶座不容易喜欢上一个人。有人说水瓶座对伴侣的要求太高，其实并非这样，水瓶座注重的是感觉。只是那么轻描淡写的一眼，那个人已经吸引了水瓶的所有注意力，从此目光便无法转移。

用一秒钟爱上一个人，然后再付出一生去忘记，水瓶座就是这样的试验品。

但几乎所有的水瓶都会否认在自己的身上发生一见钟情，因为一向自视清高，承认爱上一个人这种事似乎是在侮辱自己的智商。

更多的时候是因为，连自己都没发现已经爱上。水瓶座很多时候对于感情反应非常迟钝，迟钝到每次都是最后的知情者。有时容易出现弄不清自己的感觉，不清楚自己想做什么，觉得迷惘。

在对方没有非常明确地表示感情时会退怯，觉得爱情是两厢情愿，不想勉强对方。

显得很被动，忽冷忽热，犹豫不决，极其矛盾。在没有完全确定前，决不轻易付出感情，因为怕失去。也许是缺乏安全感，也许是对自己的保护，也可以算作是一种自私。

一般水瓶座的好朋友都是经过很长世间的考察的，不仅仅是几年，而是十几年。一旦被水瓶座当作好朋友的，会赴汤蹈火掏心掏肺。

在公车上，街边，商场，水瓶老是认错人。在茫茫人海中，始终在寻找一个熟悉的身影，直到产生幻觉。

这一刻，水瓶座突然很想痛哭流涕，因为突然发现自己几近疯狂的爱上一个人，失去了理智，失去了自我。这种突如其来的感觉，很恐惧，很无助。

水瓶座不喜欢这种感觉，因为不知该如何面对。要让水瓶座主动去追逐，是件异常困难的事，在水瓶座的世界里无法承受拒绝，就是这么脆弱，无论表面上看来是多么的坚强。

水瓶座在人前总是一幅无忧无虑没心没肝的样子，不想别人看见自己的悲伤，那样会有不安全的感觉，总是在无人的地方暗自落泪。

算了，还是放在心里吧。既不用尴尬的表白然后遭到拒绝，又不会相爱容易相处难的惨烈分手。这样很好，没人看出来，可以继续貌似潇洒，只是在夜深人静的时候，会偷偷的想一个人。

但是，不同了。尽管水瓶座装着多么不在乎，看都不看一眼，可是对方说的每句话都从耳朵进去，没见出来。对方提的任何过分的要求，水瓶座统统照单全收精心尽力，决对不会有半个‘不’字。完全成为一个爱情的奴隶，可这些只是因为她爱他，至于别人，见鬼去吧。

这种情况下，如果对方使点阴谋诡计，刻意疏远避而不见或是视而不见，电话不接或是哼哈敷衍等等，水瓶会给整疯了，开始会想是什么自己地方做错了，说错话了，然后拉下面子主动讨好试探。不用多，碰壁两次，水瓶座就会有自知之明了，不会再去想是为什么会这样，也不想知道了。心里会想，原来是对方讨厌自己，不想见到自己。明白之后，表面就是绝对的安静了，可心里只有瓶子自己知道，其实安静的水瓶更可怕。

这还没完，过了一段日子。对方如果突然又改变态度，水瓶座竟然能既往不咎问也不问，殷勤依旧，完全没有尊严可谈。只要能和对方开心的在一起，过去不重要，未来也不重要，面子不重要，金钱不重要，时间不重要，自己也不重要，他才是最重要的。

天平失衡，感情重重的压在心底，自己却飘在了半空。太在乎对方，迷失了自我，幸福也变得虚无，因为别人给不了瓶子想要的那种幸福，除了他。

自己都不爱，谁还会珍惜。爱、就是那种不计后果的疯狂！

水瓶座一旦付出，便是彻底，不可收回！

感情投入的越多越是伤的重！

最擅长的是难为自己。不想对方难过，永远都是给对方一个骄傲的理由离开，只好让自己难过。总是认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，把自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。不知道，受伤的其实是自己，只是不知道如何表现出来。

爱，这个字对水瓶座来说，太沉重珍贵了，无法用语言诠释。一旦说出口，犹如远古的文物，被发掘出土暴露于空气中，变得面目全非，失去本来的价值。

所以，不轻易说；说出口，就是一辈子。

只需一次，水瓶座便把一生的精力耗尽，只因执著，便落得伤痕累累。那段感情如强酸腐蚀着那颗麻木的心，穿了一个洞，再也无法弥补。时间是世界上最有力的矬子，把空洞的毛边渐渐抚平，不再搁人。每当寒风吹过，犹闻隐约凄凉的萧萧声，似挽歌，他的样子却还是那么清晰。

只需一次，水瓶座便不再幻想，于是狠狠将自己摔碎，拒绝熔化拼凑。因为怕熔了记忆，怕熔了那个远远的背影，怕熔了自己千年的期盼。

之后，水瓶座依然谈笑风生，依然开朗豁达，阳光向上重复着一切，因为无法承受寂寞，无法承受没有他的日子。

人们都说水瓶花心，见一个爱一个，水瓶座会哈哈一笑，说“哪有？冤啊！”。其实水瓶的爱只有一次，其实心里在滴着血，脸上却得笑的灿烂，安慰自己“我是谁啊！哪会那么弱呢！”

有人说水瓶座太冷酷太自私，自以为了不起。可是谁又了解，水瓶座的心，容量很小，只能有一个，且不具修改性。除了那个人，其他所有自动归为一种程序。

因为无法虚伪，所以甜言蜜语都吝啬给予。因为天真，所以至死之前仍在等待。因为没有勇气，所以眼睁睁放手真爱无能为力。

当看到一个瓶子在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，请千万不要被迷惑，水瓶总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与悲伤。其实并不像看到的那么快乐，同样的，也不像看到的那么悲伤。只是悲伤时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当水瓶快乐时，悲伤又不肯轻易放过。

只有真正懂得水瓶座的人，才能看见眼底那一缕似有似无的哀伤，才能明白是什么让水瓶如此的义无反顾，是什么让水瓶变得如此忽冷忽热捉摸不定，才能体会水瓶的坚强只是竭力掩饰的脆弱。

星相上说，水瓶座往往不被所爱的人珍惜。我想，是为什么呢？也许答案就在心中，只是水瓶座的本性不愿承认而已。

水瓶座除了需要一个深爱自己包容一切的人以外，还需要一个心理医生。

如果你遇到了一个水瓶座的男孩或是女孩，他一定会把他最好的爱都给你，也许他给不了你那么多，可他把自己都给你，够吗？

第一次

I came across this article this afternoon and I find it kinda meaningful, so I decided to share it here. Hope you all can have a look on it. =)


女生为男生付出多少个"第一次"?


■第一次为男生把她的吻给了他

■第一次为男生哭

■第一次为男生生气

■第一次为男生担心

■第一次为男生自残

■第一次为男生心疼

■第一次为男生提气很大的勇气说出我爱你

■第一次为男生解决男生办不到的事

■第一次为男生在男生面前脱下衣服赤裸裸的站在他面前

■第一次为男生把她的第一次给了他

■第一次为男生在厨房拼命的下厨

■第一次为男生自己受委屈

■第一次为男生熬夜陪男生打电脑

■第一次为男生闹分手只为了知道她在他心中有多么重要

■第一次为男生偷偷躲在房里哭泣不让他知道

■第一次为男生牺牲自己成全他跟别的女生

女生这一生中把多少个第一次给了男生，但男生却不懂得珍惜.

男生...有多少个女生愿意把这么多的第一次给了你? 好好珍惜爱你的女生，

不要嫌弃她，不管她以前怎么样...变得怎么样...都要好好珍惜.

女生要的并不多，

她只希望有人关心她，照顾她，保护她，疼她，哄她，逗她，陪她，爱她...

这些都只是简简单单的小事物，都能轻易的做到。

好好珍惜身边的好女孩吧!


*别无他意，纯粹欣赏* ^^

Wishing YOU the best!

Today is your 1st day of exam! I wish you all the best and do well in your exam!

Sharie will always be here to support and motivate you! Remember our Lucky Star? It is flying towards you and will surround you always. >",<... Do you receive it?! =)

Good Luck and Gambateh oh! You will pass with flying colours and I am waiting for your good news! ^^ *praying hard and keeping fingers crossed......especially for YOU!*  *heart*

*fingers crossing - wishing you will score well*

Promise

It is easier to break a promise than to make a promise.

It is easy to make a promise, but on the other hand, it is easier to break a promise.

They don't know the importance of a promise and yet, they simply make it just to please someone, so that he/she will feel better. However, they don't understand his/her feeling when he/she finds out that they actually are not able to fulfill their promise.

They can't imagine his/her heart breaking and cracking. It hurts and is painful.

Don't simply make a promise if you think you can't fulfill it or else you are just hurting your loved ones!

♥ Missing You ♥

Recently, I am addicted to a song entitled "A Year Without Rain" from Selena Gomez. I personally love this song because of its lyrics and rhythm, soft yet sentimental!

The lyrics has successfully pointed out that missing and loving someone is like wandering in desert for 1000 days, suffering and like a year without rain.

However, in the end, it comes out with a positive view that she is hoping that the drought will come to an end and flower the desert again. But we all know, would any flowers be able to survive in desert, except cactus? It somehow implies that she is still missing him, wishing a miracle will happen to flower the desert and will rain one day!

New Start!

CLP course commenced last two weeks ago! It is a new course, new environment to me and I am meeting new faces, new people! It reminds me of first day going to Primary School!

5 hours lectures are really killing me! >.<" I have quoted our lecturer's favourite phrases, "can you see or not?!" He repeated more than 100times I guess! Another thing that annoyed me is the bus, especially when I missed the bus! Damn pissed!

Recently, I like to reminisce my past, my memories! Everything will be a memory afterall, no matter sweet, bitter or sour! They are my precious and I will always remember them. What I have learnt is that I have to move on, carry on with my life. I can't stand only on the same pathway! I have to keep on moving!

My cousin told me, everything happened for a reason. There is something that I might not understand now but one day I will realise the reason behind it.

Whatever it is, it doesn't change my stand. I still love you like I did last time and will always do! I will support and encourage you and will be by your side whenever you need me! I will live a happy and blissful life! I love you! You are amazing just the way you are! *muakz*  =)

Either way is NOT GOOD for ME!

Choices are given to me. The ball has now thrown to me! Whether to keep the ball or throw it away, I do not know!

What should I do now? Either way is not good for me! Both ways will make me suffered.

I do not feel the passion I used to have last time; I do not see the sincerity I used to see last time; I do not feel the love I used to have last time!

All I want is so simple - L O V E! People say it is easy to love a person, then why does it become 'hard' when comes to me?! Is it that hard to love me?

I feel like I am living in an icebox! Feeling cold without your warm hugs; Freezing without your love to melt my heart; Difficult in breathing without kisses from you!

No matter what, I won't leave you and will always stay by your side to support you! I am still the old me, the Sharie that you know! I have faith and confidence in you, me and us! Please don't ever let me down again!

Only Love

Recently, something bad has happened on me. I am confused and puzzled on what I should do to solve this matter.

However, I learnt a lesson! - "Heart can sometimes see what is invisible to the eyes."
Being greedy is not a way to solve the problem because it is impossible for a person to have both sides of the bread. Either way, a decision or choice has to be made.

I always thought that I will create my own "happily ever after" ending but it seems like it is not as easy and simple as I thought. I cannot clap with one hand, only two can play the game. I have to go through several obstacles, tests and challenges before reaching my destination.

I don't want to give up but I don't want to see anyone of us to be in hard and suffering situation, yet I dont't want to lose anyone...
I should have noticed earlier! Things changed just right after I reached UK. After coming back to Malaysia, I thought I have successfully passed my test , in fact, actually the real test has just begun.

Tell me, what should I do? Give up and walk away? Try again and keep on chasing? Someone please tell me!
NONONO, ShArIE is a positive-thinking person. Think positively - Yesterday is dead, forget it; Tomorrow doesn't exist, don't worry; Today is here, live it.
Before ending this, I would like to dedicate a song to someone special in my heart:

LLB (Hons)

Results came out on 29th June at 12noon. I couldn't sleep the whole night and woke up early in the morning, just to sit in front of the laptop, waiting for the time to pass.

Looking at the clock "tik tok tik tok", the closer to 12noon, the more nervous I got!

Once the clock struck 12, I logged in to BlackBoard, started searching for my ID. Yeah! I found it! Oh my gosh~ I have made it! I got a 2:1~!! I just couldn't believe my eyes and I took my student card to double check my ID!

I am really happy and my hardship has finally paid off!!! It is one step forward for me to pursue my career.

The journey just begins. Finishing my law degree is just the beginning, still a long long way to go. My next plan is to study CLP in Brickfields and practise in Malaysia.

Hopefully I will be as lucky as now during my CLP.

Once again, Congratulation to all of my friends and Good Luck to them in future!

Happy 5th Year Anniversary!

7th June..

It is a special day..

..a day that belongs only to both of us!

7th June..

A day to be remembered..

..to remember our love to each other!

Our love..

It is like a TREE..

..that grows stronger through the years!

..that is nourished by our laughters and tears!

Our love..

It is like a TREE..

..that shelters us from a sunny or gloomy day!

..that its beauty grows as each day passes by!

We began as strangers;
We then became friends;

We later became one with each other;

And we will remain as ONE forever!

I Love You

Happy 5th Year Anniversary!

Happening Days..

Life has been getting bored so my friend, Joan suggested to have a BBQ during this boring holidays with Zyan, Chee Kiong, Cannon, Irene, Soon Lee and Cindy. We just used 1 day to decide and the next day, we went to buy ingredients and started preparing for BBQ. We chose a park nearby Victoria Hall.

We have bought the basic ones - chicken wings and hotdogs. Besides, we had fish balls, nuggets, garlic bread, fried meehoon and stewed ribs with eggs.

*Reached the park at around 7pm but the sun hasn't set yet. Ready for BBQ..wee~!*

*The wind was strong that day and the BBQ kits from Poundland weren't that good :(*

We finished our BBQ at around 10pm. And our next plan was to have Fish & Chips in Tynemouth and go shopping in Royal Quays, Percy Main.

After having Fish & Chips, we went to the beach nearby to have a look. Saw a lot of people (families, gangs of friends, teenages, oldies) having picnic, sunbathing, enjoying the warm sun, breezy wind by the seaside. ^^

*Nice weather to have a day-out to the beach =)*


*Group photo - from the left: Zyan, Cannon, Joan, Me and CK*

Couldn't stand under the sun for too long and so we continue our journey to Percy Main. Just a few stations from Tynemouth. In Percy Main, we need to walk quite a distant of road to reach Royal Quays. It is sort-of a designer outlet centre. There have Nike factory outlet, GAP, Reebok, Puma, Petroleum, Lacoste etc. The items are slightly cheaper than those in the retail shop. They all had their own 'booties' but I did window-shopping only. X)

*Royal Quays, an outlet centre in Percy Main - Worth to go..=)*

At around 5pm, we took Metro back to Monument and continued shopping in H&M and Primark until the shop closed. They later came to Victoria Hall to have the BBQ leftover as dinner. A great dinner with them and Joan will go London the next day.

Glad to know them although we only have the chance to get closer after second semester. =) Off now, see ya! Have a great summer holidays..=)

Boredom

Wee~~ First of all, I am super duper happy because I have officially done with my exams. I am done with my degree! Yeappie~ I am now so relieved! No more stress, no more tension, no more depression! =)

*can throw away my books and notes..=X*

*Yeappie~~Hooray~~Exam is over!!!*

But, I am starting to get bored. I have no idea what to do to pass my time. I am getting bored of going out everyday, going to the same old place. Urgh! Howard is having his exam so I couldn't disturb him everyday but to support him from Newcastle. It is just the second day and I am now BORED! However, I have started cleaning my room, tidying my books and clothes etc. Hope this can help to pass my spare time.

*My daily activities are sleeping, chatting, eating, playing computer etc...BORING!!!*

Besides, summer is coming soon and the weather nowadays is hot. The sun is burning! I can sweat under 24 degree celcius! Imagine when I go back to Malaysia! How am I going to survive in Malaysia?! Huh...

Hot SUN! *can't stand the heat!!!*

Tonight, our flat will be having potluck again with my coursemates, sort of having a farewell party for Diana and Josephine as they are going back soon on 27th May. This is an event which can ease my boredom too. ^^

Gonna off now. I shall start my preparation before it is too late. Although I am done with my exams, the next thing I am worried about is hoping that I can get good results in my degree! Please pray for me and bless me!

Angel, please bless me! *praying hard*

Good Luck to ShArIE!!!

Stress..

1 more paper and I will be FREE!

Don't give up!

4 more days only...

NO SWEET WITHOUT SWEAT!

GooD LucK, ShArIE!

May..

May...

The month that I fear of has finally arrived.

My exams are getting closer and closer. Can they please not come to me that early? I haven't get ready to welcome them yet.

I will sit for Property 2 and Consumer Protection on 13th and 14th May respectively. EU is my last paper which is on 20th May. After that, I will be FREE. But I am so lazy to do my revision! [sighing]


Angel: "Sharie, stop complaining and continue your revision! No more procrastination! Go Go Go ~"

Devil: "Study for what lah~~ Enjoy life better still.."


Angel: "You Devil, don't influence her!!! She is here for her degree. This determines her future. After she gets her degree, she can enjoy whatever lifestyle she wants!"

Sharie: "Yes, ma'am!"


Gonna start my revision now. *Books are piling up*

Good Luck to all my fellow coursemates!

Things to Do!

It has been awhile that I did not update my blog. The main factor is that I am LAZY! Haha.. For a quick updates, I went to Manchester with my friends during Chinese New Year and I have been to London again on April to celebrate Easter with my cousin. I have also visited York last week where my friends went there for their IELTS tests. And now, I am rushing for my last assignment before preparing for my exams!

However, there are still lots of things that I need to do before I can really concentrate on my revisions.

Things to do:
1. Finish my assignment.
2. Extend my room.
3. Confirm and register my guests on my graduation ceremony.
4. Order my graduation gown.
5. Book my photographs sessions.

Argh..the assignment is driving me crazy and the others have to be done by 31st May but better to get them done faster so that I can concentrate on my revisions for exams. =)

Off to bed now! Good night, people! Will try to update my blog more often. ^^

Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day

Today is 14th February which is a special day for the year of 2010. Coincidentally, Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day are happened to fall on the same day. Lots of people are busy preparing to celebrate these 2 big events. Lucky me, I have a week off.

Before celebrating Chinese New Year, families will start to clean their houses and decorate the houses with lanterns and new year scrolls which they believe will bring a prosperous year. During Chinese New Year, they will cook a table of sumptuous feast and lion dances can be seen all over the places. The most important and happiest things for children is that they get to have AngPaos from parents and elders.


As for Valentine's Day, lovers will busy choosing and buying presents for their loved ones. Some of them will make chocolates or cakes for their partners. However, for those who don't have valentine, they will celebrate their Friendship's Day.

This year, a special year for me as I am celebrating these both events overseas. I am not lonely at all as I have friends here with me. We had a reunion dinner on New Year's eve and we are going to watch lion dances in Chinatown on the 1st day of New Year. Moreover, I received calls from Howard and he accompanied me throughout the day to celebrate Valentine's Day with me.

Besides, on the 3rd day of Chinese New Year, I am going to Manchester for 3 days 2 nights with Zyan, Guat Lee and Yee Lin. Will update when I get back from the trip.

Going to bed now. Later I have to wake up early in the morning and prepare to go Chinatown. Hope the lion dance will not let me down. =P

Wishing everyone has a Happy and Prosperous Chinese New Year. May the year of Tiger brings good health, wealth and happiness to everyone. Not to forget, Happy Valentine's Day too!

My 21st Birthday~!!!

24.01.2010 is my birthday. I am now officially 21 years old which I can receive my Key of Freedom! Haha..

Couldn't believe that I am now an 21-year-old lady. I am happy in the sense that I finally get the freedom that I have longed for; sad is because I am getting older and older.

This year will be a memorable year for me. It was the 1st time I spent my birthday in UK with my bestie and friends! They have given me a great surprise in Nino's restaurant. I received lots of present and I love them so so much, especially the present from Zyan! It is my favourite! =)

I have been living in this world for more than 20 years, have experienced lots of ups and downs which I have learnt my lessons and become more mature, stronger. I am no more a coward who escapes from problems but I face the problems with all the bravery and courage I have. I should behave like an adult instead of a child.

I received lots of wishes and blessings from my family, relatives, friends and loved ones. Hope that the blessings will accompany me throughout the year or perhaps the rest of my life. Once again, thanks for the blessings, surprise, dinner and presents.

May you be blessed and stay healthy and happy always.

Happy Birthday to Sharie!